And can you must

But I love the pain
as long as it´s mine
and it´s mine to keep
So go and don´t care
because you´re not like me,
you´re not this sick yet

So I love the pain
and I will take it all
All you can give
Make more if it´s almost running out
Make more to keep me busy,
dealing with it
so you can go
while I´m not watching
because you have to
hence you´re still not dying

My hands are cold and numb
You may let go, I won´t notice
So I love the pain
that I´m willing to save you
Believe me,
for a masochist this is the only way
Only way to do it
If it wasn´t you, it´d be me
And you must go,
fly like the happy times
which we had so little
You must go
as long as you can
And can you must,
since you´re still just the weak you