Soulless

I´ve heard that I can have no soul
since I deny God
Like something had broken inside of me
at the very moment I started to rely on science
But I don´t understand such a lie
because of course I´ve got a soul
If not, then what´s the part crying in me
when my eyes refuse to do their job?

For me the soul is just a name for
what makes me me
The one that cries over the sorrows of the world
which yells in confusion
pouring all the feelings it carried on paper
as a desperate effort to save all the fleeting moments

No, you can´t disclaim my soul
and there´s not a religion that would make it more real
The ones dying in their faith, blind and unwise
slaves of their god
I can´t save, don´t even want to
And do not tell me lies
which I easily know to be only horror stories

Miserable poet´s son

This poet´s son is miserable
In the moment of the biggest joy
after a long waiting
I don´t know how to trickle syrup
with my pen on to the paper
but stare mute in front of me
straight on the liberating words
My head is so empty
that my happiness should have no limits
but it all will stay inside of me
until I realize it myself
and someone else shall write the happy poems
I can´t do it
I´ll just write about sorrow, pain
Smile, happiness remain outside

But inside of me I can be glad

A life worth living

Would you fall for me?
I´m down here,
reaching up to the rest of the world
And it´s shining so beautiful,
so unreachable
My eyes hurt to look up to the sun
I´m a creature of dark,
of all you´ve ever been scared of
Now, gime me your hand
pull me up
take me there
where air is clean and breathable

Do you want to reach for me?
Bend, bend your body over the edge
you just might see me
if you really try to
I´m so dark myself
so rotten inside
I´ve become almost like everyone else
Save me right now
if you´re going to
Tomorrow I might be too deep to want it

I´m reaching for you, for someone to listen
Someone to whisper all my fears
I won´t make a sound, don´t be looking for it
I´m silent like the darkness itself
just as shallow as all the shadows
I´m the creature of the dark
wishing you could be like me
You´re the promise of better times,
better days
A life worth living

I´m leaning on your good heart
Your warm, caring side
Don´t leave me here, rotting
One day more and I´ll be gone
Like the shadows when the sun comes up

Discovery

When you find what you went seeking for
don´t be afraid of coming and showing it to me
Even if you brought a new love in front of me
I wouldn´t be scared to look it in the eye
It was me who equiped you for your journey
with my unwavering faith in your strenght
Wouldn´t I be hypocrite if I declined to see the result of your discovery

Bring it in front of me, no matter how it hurts
There´s no pain unknown to me anymore
And if you happen to fall for someone else
there´s nothing I can about it
I won´t accept a heart next to me which doesn´t belong to me
I want you to be mine
If it can´t be so, you can disappear
and stay away forever

And I couldn´t take someone like you either
couldn´t love credulousness
as well as couldn´t love naivety
That´s why I sent you to look for it
just in case you would find something better than me
Because only afflicted love lasts and
is worth having
Even if you don´t find it, come back anyway
At least you then now there´s nothing better than me in this world

Graduation Speech

We have to go forward
but our past demands us to stay
I wouldn´t like to lose or forget
or to be forgotten
Future shouts in front of us
promising us the land and the riches
Will we be lost in the labyrinth of possibilities?
We´re now at the end of the straight paths

It´s time to become one´s own light
get strenght from something else
than what is familiar and safe
Step over the border frightens
but we have to go over
we mustn´t wait

Don´t ever change,
the ones who will stay in my memories
Otherwise I can no longer recognize you
amongst people like us
There´s nothing to fall on
have to make a new fallback

Change is here
It gets it power from us
Let´s not let each others down, not now
It´s our time to take the world on our hands
Don´t forget me
There´s not a obvilion so deep
that I could lose you in it

Wait

Could you wait for me, please
Just one moment more
I´ll come and pick you up then
right now I´m busy
But don´t worry:
I´m hurrying only for you
I´m coming as fast as I can

Wait, don´t go yet
I´m late and
I can´t get the time back I´ve once lost
But I promised, didn´t I
I don´t remember ever betraying a single promise
I´ve made for you
Hold on to my words
while you still recall them
Repeat them in your mind and
you know the truth
I´d never play tricks on you
I´m far too much in love for it
So wait just a little
I´ll catch up with you soon

You´re watering the ground with your tears
in vain, I can tell you
I´m just behind the next turning
always one step after your gaze
If you paid attention you would notice I´m present
I´m not lost
just ended up far away
but I´ll find my way back

If you just call my name

World is huge, my love
You get easily lost there
and obstacles are sometimes enormous
I´m not as strong as I´d like to be
for you
I try anyway, I do my best
I´ll come and get you
if you can wait just a moment longer