Unavoidable

Who would have known it is that hard
to learn from what you've done
and never do it again?
I've faced this and I thought I had said goodbye
once and for all
But it seems like they'll always come back
even if I'm bound to fall
My mistakes, I mean

At least they're not attracted by success
or the glory I call madness and tricks
everyone else takes as truth

Who would have known that a girl this smart
couldn't stay out of trouble
when she already knows it too well
You see, there's nothing behind the brain
behind the skill to lead you wrong
I'm not wiser than any of you
just a lot better in pretending

At least I know what will happen next
and tomorrow there'll be no one to witness
the crash as my fall ends

Save It

Save the world that's drowning
under water, under the sins
It's about to wash them away, all of them
and forget all about them
I don't know what to do
as I watch the destruction happen before my eyes
I don't know if I love this country
more than I want it to sink into the waves
And it crumbles, it's going down
but we must save it

Save the soil that's disappearing
into the arms of the sea
like it never existed on this Earth
The tide comes and it's all gone like the history
we hold on to as if it could do the trick
and fool us to believe
I don't know how I feel
but we must reach out a helping hand
in order to call ourselves humane again

Save the weight of the dark past
that's soon washed away by the salt in the water
What do we do if we forget it
if we can't regret what we did
How can we learn our lesson?
I don't know where to look
when there's someone in need everywhere
but I'm like a straw, useless
Do something and pull me with you
under the water, if we must
so we can clean our hearts one day

I was wathcing SHINee perform in MTV's Video Music Aid Japan (or whatever) and yeah, it made me think. It's quite messy combination.

I Used To

I used to believe
in the good in people
and I used to think
that my mistakes don't count
in the enormous universe
that a person this small
couldn't make any difference
not good, not bad

I used to rely
on mere words
which didn't even need to mean anything
and I used to think
that promises are the glue keping this society together
I thought I could find forgiveness when needed

I used to do so many things
and kept the apocalypse far away like that
It was so harmless
to be innocent
But now my mistakes are everything
people can see

Are they all that defines me?

Obvilion

When I can't forget
a word, not a single nuance of emotion
flash memory treasures moments
like preparing them for eternity
I hope that I don't have to
try to fall into a sleep like death with a heavy heart like this
or I don't know if I can take it
It is said that the capasity of human memory is limitless
but I hope its boundaries have to be somewhere
because how am I going to survive otherwise

Every touch, the smallest possible meaning
they all twist and turn in my mind
growing and taking over space
It's like I'm trying to bulldoze stony stoil from rocks
and make it fertile
I'm suffocating beneath my own soul
do I have to if I don't want to any longer
Where lies the bottom of the iceberg, the subcoscious
that devotedly takes care of what cosciousness won't accept
I search and dive even deeper
only to realize I'm in trouble

When nothing sinks into oblivion
you cannot forgive your mistakes
and what if becomes familiar in the beginning of a sentence
I didn't ask for this
who could I donate my burden to, give it away
because honestly speaking:
I can't take it anymore

Limitation

Time is limited
and especially I haven't been given it endlessly
it ends, it gets wasted
and then there's none left
Would have I taken this path
if I had only guessed its ending would be like this
if I had known
that it must end in tears
salty from sadness but still
filled with good times

I'm not afraid because I know
that this can't be avoided
The seasons change and turn their back to us
only to meet us later again
but still they're not the same
The rain of the autumn doesn't bring the same message with it
Would have I given up
if I had realized earlier
that I can't do this, I can't let go
that the tears will not be dried

I'll forget everything that's waiting for me in the future
because what you don't think
does not exist

Rainbow

The wonderland of my hopes
where my hopes have strength to live
as they're close to coming true
That land I must now abandon
Rainbow carted me off here
but now it's fading and leaving
guiding me elsewhere, forcing me to follow
I didn't fing gold, not silver
and I didn't reach my hand for the fruits
because I already got everything

Happiness

Goodbye now, I must hurry
I can't promise to return
and even if I get lost back here, I've surely changed already
Still my memories will tolerate time and consumption
I'll take a piece of this place with me
colorful like a piece of real rainbow
and I shall never bring it back

Distance, Time and Longing

The entire distance
its every turn and curve of the road
how could you measure its influence
or describe longing created by it
when a single kilometer is breathtakingly long
even though you pass every one of them rejoicing
from the reunion
from the certainty that you'll be allowed to smile again

The whole endless time
that strecthes itself towards the eternity
how could you define its power
to someone who has never experienced it
even though every minute brings the moment closer
when all that time is behind you

The total limitless longing
that grows day by day only due to its evilness
how could I overcome it
even though every day is a day less

Every Song

Every song is a reminder of you
as if every love song was written for you
by me
as if every angsty line was meant for me to say
As if everyone knows our story
and what went wrong
Still they ask why don't I let go
Like I had the opportunity!

Every song I hear, every book I read
they're all about you
and I see only you
in my restless dreams
as if there was nothing else in this world
as if I had to suffer
Yet they ask why don't I enjoy life while I can

Like I wanted to

And every word I say I'd want to say to you
but what's done is done

A Moth

Into the night we must go
though a moth like me
would rather spin around the white light
blinded, never finding the way out
and not feel this pain or pressure
but fly until my wings are tattered
Because what would it be compared to the fear of the unknown

The darkness we must face, at last
even though it's the one I escaped from
If only I could see even just a glimpse of light
to navigate by, otherwise I'll get lost
My thin wings won't take me far
as long as the sun doesn't rise
even though moths are not allowed to fly at day

We must abandon the safe haven
before the light goes down when the string burns out
Then we have to go
now we're at least ready for it
Though I'd rather blind my eyes in the light
than see what's in the dark

Ocean and Wind

The ocean is black too
as I know it's yet again another road away
Another way to escape
and I can't stop you, not deny either
because what right would I do it with
What could I use to calm down my conscience
even if my heart found peace?
The waves rock back and forth
along with them you get away
if you only want
As soon as you get everything you need with you

The wind is bittersweet,
like a betrayed lover's fingers on my skin,
because it'll raise your sails
And even if I stand on its way, I can't stop it
What could stop the powers of nature?
I can't understand what draws you away from me
and it's a heavy sting in my heart
but how could I forgive myself
my selfishness
if I asked you to stay
The wind won't die down, it blows
and zaps you from me
when you eventually say goodbye

Fear

I'm greatly afraid
that if I let you go away
you'll return badly changed
and I can't separate the change from damage
or heal you to your old self
Not to mention judging you, like I was any better
But still I'm scared, so scared
for your innosence
you may not realize its value
but if I was you, I'd take better care of it

Every moment I wait with terror
when you're going to disappear and never come back
with that same look in your eyes
And there's nothing to cover up
what has taken shape inside of you
Still can I tell you no, as if I was wiser
I don't have that power
I stay up every night, waiting
when the world is going to take your most precious
My most meaningful

And every morning when I look at myself in the eye
I see what I'm scared I'll to find in your soul one day

Longing and Love

Does longing feel better
than real love and its burning
Is it more powerful after all
more meaningful
Am I more attached to you
when I don't see your face
Am I even happier
I'm being eaten from the inside instead of
being burnt by a glaring flame

Does the strong craving brush my inside more gently
than love and its demands
which in the end serve only the outer shell
Is it better just wait than actually gain
Do I wait for the departure with more excitement
than the reunion?
And still I can't escape
since I do need love to keep my longing fresh

Is it more beautiful in its fragility
and more appropriate in a way
than heated love
that can't be hidden
Do I prefer languishing
than giving my all for someone else

Sith Fisto is quite busy so I'm actually doing the translations myself. Lol.