Dead-end

You hurt your hands to the street
Wounds on your hands were a sign of
Another direction where you just can´t go
Where you are going to go when all walls
Have increased against you
You already feel the narrowness,
How air changes to carbon dioxide
Are you going to stop breathing
Just a bad habit anyway

Another dead-end in front of you, again
Little by little you fall on your knees
But you can´t go down either
You´ll only hurt yourself to the street

You aren´t my Romeo

I must confess
I´m in love with you
Can´t help it
One thing´s for sure:
You aren´t my Romeo
He died long ago
And took more than a half of me
It´s only fair that you know

You aren´t my Romeo
Can I ever be anything for you
If I´m still broken because of him
If I´m still another guy´s Julia
Too much little pieces
It´s not fair

Can´t you see, I´m warning you

Floor by floor into the grave

Why doesn´t anything fail
When everything should blow up to your face
And leave you there, dying
Living corpse on the way to final death
Only waiting for that moment when
Suicide is understandable

Bad words and gossips, but those telltales
They know nothing
Even your boyfriend looks at you and smiles
You wait, wait for your decapitation day
One moment, and another link brakes
You fall floor by floor
Soon you´ll be where you wanted to be:
In your grave

May you be my witness

May you be my witness
I never wanted to hurt
I never meant to kill myself
Never thought about it
Now the edge is so near
Too near to forget
I´m walking, hold me!
My hands have been looking for another hands

I knew in my heart:
I might be too broken
Too broken to give to anyone
My heart kept believing
But does it do any good for anyone
If I´m going to destroy it?

My knight

Dark
How frightening it is to face it alone
I know
I´m fighting against these dragons for nothing
Sun will set again tomorrow
It will chase darkness on its feet

You used to fight with me
My knight
You kept me safe
On your iron chest
You know how afraid I was
How much I fear what I don´t know
Anyway, you rode away on horseback
With your white horse
So you rode to look for your own princess

What ever helps you sleep your nights

Is it my purpose make you suffer
You, my dear
Well, it´s your choice
What ever helps you sleep your nights
It´s how you like it
And nothing else matters

Why so serious
This can´t be more than a game
But what ever helps you fall asleep
However

No I don´t mean any harm
So why you cry now?
Ok, I apologize
If it makes you sleep better
What ever helps you sleep your nights
I really don´t care

Why so restless, stay still, please
What else I need to say
Just to make you sleep
Well, what ever...
But please, honey, don´t bother me

So this couldn´t be easier

You´re hurting me
I´ve told that, I´ve screamed
Maybe not loud enough?
Anyway you keep on doing it

It´s the power you get
You´re maybe weak but still you control me
So which one of us is the strong one?

I can look at you with anger
You´re able to ignore it
Perfectly
Funny, because it was me who thought:
"This couldn´t be easier"

All your fears

All your fears above you
They all have grown inside you
Become too heavy to handle
You they will take to the depths
It´s you they paralyze
It´s you they bury

I don´t need fears to be with me
My life is a mess anyway
You gave up to your own mind
So your fears became your king
And so you bow them, unintentionally
All your fears upon you
Has been made to be your coffin

Your life goes by

One moment more I´ll stay awake by you
Then I give up and fall asleep
I´m tired wondering your life
Hours been wasted

You lie stiff, like a corpse
Almost not breathing
Your life goes little by little
You´re afraid of losing it
But don´t have the nerve to live it

I think they have forgotten you
Slowly you get buried under the snow
As quiet as your heart
If you had reached in time
Maybe you wouldn´t be here, slowly dying

Vampire and garlic

So many ways you have
Just to say goodbye
And you´ll use them every time
I´m going to say `I love you`
Can you read my thoughts?
It feels like it
You look away like I´m burning light
Is it me or you who you defend

You say goodbye, but I could easily swear
I´ve seen sorrow in your eyes
You don´t accept my comfort
Stupid you

You´re not looking for affection or love
Still I´m thrilled with you
We are like a vampire and garlic

Faith and hope coming home

How dark it comes before light
When light embraces me and brightness covers this all
I saw hope leaving us
Feeble it shambled away
Now I feel it coming home
Like a refugee, new happiness with it

I saw faith dying
Suffering it fade from me
Now I feel it reborn
Taking its place like it was never too far away
Never too far away to reach

Maybe, just maybe
I made myself believe all this was true

positive, eh?

Unable to understand myself

Haven´t I written these lines already
Time after time
At the lonely hours I read them over and over
Still can´t get more in between
So blank, so nothing
Everything has a meaning
But you won´t ever get it

Simple words, so meaningless
Unable to speak my language
I´ve found it hard to understand myself
Confused mind is always a mess
Try to put it on paper:
You´ll find yourself giving up
Sooner or later

This is a rare piece cos I wrote this in English, not in Finnish.

Long way to go until my madness is gone

How many men I can reel
Keep innocent face and wink alluringly
When I´ll meet the one who sees
All I have hidden and understands
How depective and infernal I´ve been and still am

How many times I can swear my love
I can´t look in the eyes anymore
Only a few seconds at the time
How many can take part of me
Before oldness takes it all
Long way to go until my madness is gone

Why I have to hurt when I truly need you
Why I can´t be here now
Stupid me, play and lose everything
I can´t remember faces, voices or names
They drown each other
No matter how hard I try to remember