I need you

I need you, my miracle
now when every word looks like a lie
when I can´t separate my actions from my dreams
when the last lines drawn on the water are disappearing
I need you worse than I believed I could
but where could I find you
So versed are you in disappearing and hiding
into one of your hideouts
which you built all under wraps from me
while I was planning a future for us

I need you, my miracle
as I learnt to know you
as you described yourself
That´s the point, I never created a perception of you
but took what I got and saved it
I didn´t ask, I didn´t believe
only trusted like a fool can
Why would you have lied
Yes, why

I need you, dear miracle
now when I don´t remember who said and what
who promised and when
who looked who into eyes and kissed
without permission, as always
Who, which one of us
or did I imagine it all in my day dreams
They´re occasionally more real than this moment
Tell me if I´m completely sane
even when I don´t always know
if the voice comes from head
or from my ears
my hopes or reality

I need you, miracle darling
to tell our history
as it happened
not as I hope it did
Or it doesn´t matter what you tell me
as long as you come back