Killing silence

He don´t say a word
As usual
He can´t say the simpliest thing in the world
He doesn´t look in the eye or smile
I get stuck into his silence

I want to scream and hit him
What´s wrong with you, talk to me!
I forget how to speak
I don´t get what he wants from me
But I´ll let him die into his silence
Or it´ll kill me

What did you do

You´re really messed up
Totally lost and alone, aren´t you
What did you do, what did you do
It can´t matter cos you don´t remember, don´t you

Your heart hurts but it can´t matter cos you don´t feel it
What did you do
I can´t tell but they will
What should you do
I can´t say but they will
You don´t remember but they will
But it can´t matter cos you won´t believe them, won´t you


sometimes Swedihs lessons are useful :P

It was me, only me

Feeling so bad right now
Going down, down, down
Deeper than no one should
No tears, my sorrow is too hopeless
No hugs and kisses, I´m too pissed of

It was me, only me
But mirrors are as broken as my eyes
I didn´t see myself while it was done
So it can´t be me to be blamed

Feeling so damn bad
It wasn´t me, really

Take the fucking couch!

You never fight for me
For the house, the car and the dogs
We fought ´til dying
You didn´t want me but
Plates, knives and forks you did
For me you were too tired to fight
You gave up long time ago

TV you wanted
But not a memory of me
Now we sit here and
Compromise who gets and what
Can´t you look at me?

Night is day and day is nothing

My nycthemerons start when night comes
When you come to me
Night is celebration of colors
My senses fulfill
All ends by the morning
When you get up and drop me to the dark

Days are black time
I could cut them from between
At the nights I can´t sleep
I don´t want to lose a single moment
Of the time I´m alive

Pianist

He plays in the light of candles
In a white shirt
I look at him from the ground
What is so close
Is so far away
Fingers float on white keys
Blacks fade to the dark

Does he tell something by his playing
Something he´s not able to say
Message has been hidden to the music
He can´t say it´s there
And I can´t seek for it

Notes detach from the staff
When he looks at them
They fly to me and take the place
Place that his words could fill
I see his hands and get hyptonized
I´d love to put my fingers next to his
But ground is too far away from him

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this is for all shy boys...

Squatter

It grows in my head
It suffuses and overwhelms my brain
Thoughts run around it
It distress me and pushes me smaller
I feel how it eats with my mouth
How it breaths with my lungs

Pounding my head to the wall
But it doesn´t make it unreal
It grows, it grows
Soon there isn´t anything else left

Too many yesterdays

I don´t want wake up anymore
Wake up and see everything is the same
Which I saw yesterday
Which I´ll see tomorrow
So many yesterdays

I can´t get on my feet
I know I´m dying
On the way to nothingness

My hands are burning and my head is a block anvil
Of the devil
I cry for I didn´t go earlier
How week can you be

I leave nothing and nothing will change
I´m relieved
Anything won´t break when I fall apart
I just vanish
I never wanted to exist

Savior

I´d need savior
I don´t know what I´m gonna do to myself
But something will happen

Is everything ok
That´s the question
You should ask

Anyway I can´t bother you
Even though my life is about to end
You can ask but I can´t say a thing
You go and believe I´m just ok
Maybe I am
If I believe enough
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I don´t know have my followers died or what :D anyway, dying-theme dominates still.

Silent

You never told how tough the life was to you
Never
You held my head up
But it was your head that needed holder

Last night you decided to let go
You got tired with me and this world
No lines, no glue
Why couldn´t you tell me?

You felt the pain
After what you did it hurts me more
There is only grey vortex left
Which conceals all good memories

I´m so angry
If I could meet you now
I´d kill you again
But I need you too much
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Yesterday I heard something bad. you can guess what. It didn´t actually happen to me, but this is my feelings about it.

Suidical

You will kill yourself
So you swear
You wring sympathy before your desperate death

You´re gonna jump
Have a nice trip, I say
Enjoy your last moments in the air
I´d want too

You´re gonna cut your veins
Draw the last truth with your blood
Bigger than art
I adore you

You´re gonna get an overdose
Then you will see all clearly
Will you see all answers?

You´re gonna shoot your head off
Lift your finger to the trigger
Feel how you have all what remains power
You controle your world
You are finally sure about everything
I couldn´t

Show us how you´ve been built
How you´ve been built wrong

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Pretty rough text I´d say. I don´t adore suicide, not at all! I´m just.. I´m a poet.

In Pieces

You tell me: Love my good features, only
Forget the bad
Love this, leave this
And you can change that anytime

I can´t love you in pieces
Everything or nothing

People are entirety
I can´t take only good
Wickedness comes with it
You and your vices
Or I´ll walk away

You need to dream for me

Everyone can´t be saved
That´s just what happened
Eyes close up and never will be open
When what I see is too rough
Lips make last whisper when air runs out
Loosen my grib

Reality is a dark place
And there´s no happy endings for everyone
You have to let go when all you´ll get is this

Dreams didn´t come true
And I won´t dream while I sleep
You need to dream for me

M y longest poem ever

I´m building a fairytale world
World where I can be happy too
Where tears don´t hurt
where sorrow is beautiful
I´m building a world
a palace for me
World, where wings carry over the sky

I´m building a world
Consummated from wishes
Grown from dreams
Rejoined with hope
Where dead people get their serenity
For people who suffocated into their pain
I give everlasting sleep
For drowned light air to breath
For burned sprinkles on hair

I´m building a fairytale world
Where love end when it needs to
But never to wrong words
where it snows from clear sky

I´m building dreams
Where I can live in and where I can be forgotten
Where I can lose the truth
Dreams which are week enough to last

I´m building a fairytale world
World where sleeplesses look at sunrise
World where is always full moon
I´m building it

I make a fairytale world
Where I´ll leave myself
I´ll leave myself to grow ready for this world
Where walls fall and bury you into darkness

Snowmansmile :)

He kisses me
And asks how does it taste
I don´t know
I haven´t been there

You don´t realize
How far away I can be in your arms

He settles for snowmansmile
And cold phrases
He doesn´t see
That I don´t exist like he thinks

The Last Man Alive

The Last man here waiting
Waiting for sun to rise
I just can´t be sure
Will it come over
After this war

I´m waiting for solution
And I´m afraid of it
Words been said
May destroy me
I´ll see do I survive
I`ll be the first man falling to ground

Drivind away from it

Come
We drive away now
Away from this wickedness
It drinks my life and eats my soul
Somewhere is got to be something better
That is what I want believe

It takes my life, it took my love
It took me away from you

If there´s no place I can breathe
I don´t think there´s a reason for me
To keep fighting
Why should I go on
If it hurts anyway?

The End of All

I´d like to restart this story
From where we started to go wrong
I´d like to erase all written pages
I don´t wanna see them again
I want to burn this thin book

Perhapse it can´t be burned?

If we can´t restart
If we don´t have that chance
Can I put the last point, at least?
We don´t have, I don´t have
The reason to go on
When there´s no words
Nothing to make the end happier
Nothing where I could hide my tears

Your Name

After your name came silence, again
Silence that hurts
You think it kills you
You wish you´d die

After your name came silence
Nothing to say
Only wet looks to the ceiling
Your name, hewep to the rock

After your name only silence
It haunts
No one can admit what it means
They say it´s only letters
That silence
I wish it kills me