Bad karma

I´d want lot´s of things
But if I have learned anything during this life,
I´ve learned that I don´t get anything I desire
My wishes crumble before they fly

I must be paying for someones bad karma
Maybe a serial killer
whose death wasn´t enough to aton

My self-control is quite impressive
I stop all my words, all my prayers with it
and suffocate unsaid dreams
I have to be careful for what I´m wishing for
because I never get what want