Madness

I hate you
but I'm living without you
Madness, that's your name
A word like a desease,
a term like a curse
But I have no problem to cast it on you
no matter what it might bring upon you

I hate you
but I can walk away without saying a word
I won't give you an excuse
to reach my soul with your white eyes
There's no bottom for you
so just keep on falling
Extreme, that's your lover
I'm a substitute

But I'm living without you
even if you won't let me breathe
All the games and the mark of eternal quilt
it's all over, it's all gone

I hate you
and I can't save you from your hopes,
your real death wish
Madness, that's all you know
my face was just another facade for it
I'm bound to live without you
you're too tempted to destroy me

I hate you with my heart
no rational part of my mind can understand your tricks

Madness, that's your name
I dare to call it out loud
Abandonment, that's mine

http://www.youtube.com/user/2NE1#p/a/u/2/NB5jyYD2WEw At first I wasn't very eager to check this music video out because it's animated and blaah but the song AND the video are both awesome. I'm a real blackjack now.

Somebody

Somebody tell me when this is over
I don't dare to crack my eyes open
and witness the mess, the mixture of
shared pain, inhumanely clear memories
and already ruined promises
I can hear the echoes
as they travel through what was once sacred
and blow life back into them
to make them mock me
once the voices have died down

Somebody stay with me
so I'm not left alone to collect the missing pieces
Fairytales should get prettier towards the end
why is this just getting nastier by the day

I can hear the fight
and the silent celebration of another broken relationship
Those falling apart were supposed to protect me
and be one forever
But somebody please cover my eyes
until my tears have dried
Somebody should cover my mouth
until I have no more angry words to say
Until I can't make this any worse

I finally bought Sunrise Avenue's latest album Out Of Style. It's nowhere near as good as On The Way To Wonderland and it seems as if their first album will remain their best. But still song called Somebody Help Me managed to inspired me enough to write this.

Out Of Ordinary

It feels like all the thanks and goodbyes
have lost their meaning
and turned into what they usually are: a mere habit
But I don't want our friendship to be described like all the others
I don't want to define us as nothing out of ordinary
I used to see the flame of your soul
as we'd write down our pain
and give it away, word by word
But now I see just the dead end

I don't hear you beneath the compliments and phrases
not the way I used to
What does it tell me?

I remember too well how we used to talk
about everything between the earth and the sky
but always return safely before going to bed
Now you leave me soaring up there alone,
your eyes closed and hands clamped over your mouth
I don't know what you're holding back
but it's making us ordinary
just like two friends should be

I don't want to be what I should be
Not with you

And when you say you love me
it's just a habit as well
All our memories, all the things we used to laugh at
are now written on the stone
and we shall not break free from that law
because then there's nothing left
From what used to be so great
what was meant to be everlasting

The Fire

I'll be the fire that catches you
and licks away your scars and the broken feathers
of your god-forsaken wings
I'll destroy everything you claimed your own
but save your beating heart
until I go down with the flames
and lie with you, cold like an iceberg

I'll be the fire that releases you from your sins
which you call simple mistakes
from your haunting past
I'll take the flesh off your bones
and boil your blood away
but I'll make sure your name remains unforgotten
as I die with you

I'll be the fire to warm you again
as the cold world has ruined your all
your loving heart, your weak soul
and every single good thing you managed to gain
I'll show your true nature
as you turn into lethal flames and burning heat
and paint your beauty with fading colors of life
And with you I'm not afraid of death,
the ashes that become after the fire
You're not a phoenix
but trust me, death is not the worst thing for a human being

As Good As

This was just as good as it was going to get
and now we're slipping further away
I don't know if gravity changed
beneath our feet
I want to hold on to you but I'm too angry
to confess how sad I am
and so you misunderstand me
like so often before
Every single beginning used to mean something
something happy, something shiny and positive
but now they look like little deaths
on our way to the grave

This was just as good as it could have been
there's no what-ifs there, no second thoughts
I know we ran this path to the end
I want to spin around and race again
but my enraged words are now chasing you away
You misunderstood me
and now you want me to leave you
like so many times before
We used to love each other
but we dropped it somewhere on the way
as it got more like a burden
to both of us

This was too good to be true
and I can't see another way to end this story
it was a dead end from the very beginning
I can only beg the final doom won't be painful
because I'm in pain already
I want to take your hand and lead you
to where we came from
but what used to be strenght to us
is now blocking the way
Every beginning is now just a partial death
and we have to bury each other here

The Happy Couples

The happy couples
real or imagined:
I don't know what to say
I'm so envious of what they share

It seems like something special
yet so casual at the same time
And so far out of reach,
too hard to achieve

They don't even need to be happy
to seem perfect to me
and all I can do is wonder:
what on Earth is wrong with me?