The Story

My pen cannot write an end to this story
even though we're happy only in fiction
and even though we exist only in my imagined dreams
I can change the plot and make us smile again
I have that power
but only over my foolish desires

I won't let you leave me
as my pen writes down our shared story
I won't let your path separate from mine
because I can't erase the weddings and a dozen children
I already wrote as our future
It won't change, it won't fade away
my words are just as good as truth

Even if I have to tear the ugly, sad pages away
and burn them until they're gone
I'll let us live happily
and I won't let this story end, not ever
even though it's just a breathtaking wish

And even though we must die even on paper
I won't allow it hurt
and we'll be together
even if you decide to walk away

Because my pen can't write an end to us
Our story is the only one I know

I've always adored this song but now that I actually found the lyrics... It's awesome. Purely awesome. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hduadsFnJfA

Unavoidable

Who would have known it is that hard
to learn from what you've done
and never do it again?
I've faced this and I thought I had said goodbye
once and for all
But it seems like they'll always come back
even if I'm bound to fall
My mistakes, I mean

At least they're not attracted by success
or the glory I call madness and tricks
everyone else takes as truth

Who would have known that a girl this smart
couldn't stay out of trouble
when she already knows it too well
You see, there's nothing behind the brain
behind the skill to lead you wrong
I'm not wiser than any of you
just a lot better in pretending

At least I know what will happen next
and tomorrow there'll be no one to witness
the crash as my fall ends

Save It

Save the world that's drowning
under water, under the sins
It's about to wash them away, all of them
and forget all about them
I don't know what to do
as I watch the destruction happen before my eyes
I don't know if I love this country
more than I want it to sink into the waves
And it crumbles, it's going down
but we must save it

Save the soil that's disappearing
into the arms of the sea
like it never existed on this Earth
The tide comes and it's all gone like the history
we hold on to as if it could do the trick
and fool us to believe
I don't know how I feel
but we must reach out a helping hand
in order to call ourselves humane again

Save the weight of the dark past
that's soon washed away by the salt in the water
What do we do if we forget it
if we can't regret what we did
How can we learn our lesson?
I don't know where to look
when there's someone in need everywhere
but I'm like a straw, useless
Do something and pull me with you
under the water, if we must
so we can clean our hearts one day

I was wathcing SHINee perform in MTV's Video Music Aid Japan (or whatever) and yeah, it made me think. It's quite messy combination.

I Used To

I used to believe
in the good in people
and I used to think
that my mistakes don't count
in the enormous universe
that a person this small
couldn't make any difference
not good, not bad

I used to rely
on mere words
which didn't even need to mean anything
and I used to think
that promises are the glue keping this society together
I thought I could find forgiveness when needed

I used to do so many things
and kept the apocalypse far away like that
It was so harmless
to be innocent
But now my mistakes are everything
people can see

Are they all that defines me?

Obvilion

When I can't forget
a word, not a single nuance of emotion
flash memory treasures moments
like preparing them for eternity
I hope that I don't have to
try to fall into a sleep like death with a heavy heart like this
or I don't know if I can take it
It is said that the capasity of human memory is limitless
but I hope its boundaries have to be somewhere
because how am I going to survive otherwise

Every touch, the smallest possible meaning
they all twist and turn in my mind
growing and taking over space
It's like I'm trying to bulldoze stony stoil from rocks
and make it fertile
I'm suffocating beneath my own soul
do I have to if I don't want to any longer
Where lies the bottom of the iceberg, the subcoscious
that devotedly takes care of what cosciousness won't accept
I search and dive even deeper
only to realize I'm in trouble

When nothing sinks into oblivion
you cannot forgive your mistakes
and what if becomes familiar in the beginning of a sentence
I didn't ask for this
who could I donate my burden to, give it away
because honestly speaking:
I can't take it anymore

Limitation

Time is limited
and especially I haven't been given it endlessly
it ends, it gets wasted
and then there's none left
Would have I taken this path
if I had only guessed its ending would be like this
if I had known
that it must end in tears
salty from sadness but still
filled with good times

I'm not afraid because I know
that this can't be avoided
The seasons change and turn their back to us
only to meet us later again
but still they're not the same
The rain of the autumn doesn't bring the same message with it
Would have I given up
if I had realized earlier
that I can't do this, I can't let go
that the tears will not be dried

I'll forget everything that's waiting for me in the future
because what you don't think
does not exist